Farewell Old Friend

At 8.11 pm Malaysian time on Tuesday the 16th of February 2021, my friend and brother, Mohd Zulfadhli Faiq bin Baharuddin, passed away.

Zulfadhli (nickname: Butcher, ‘nombor dobi‘: B38, Sulaiman House) was my dorm mate in Form 1 in MCKK. He died a month short of his 37th birthday.

I was working on some MRI analysis scripts when I read the news in our batch’s WhatsApp group. Disbelief turned to shock, then grief, as more messages started pouring in. Even now, a few hours later, I am still trying to gather my thoughts. Because of the pandemic, the hospital has to wait until his COVID-19 test results are out before they can release his body. The doctor in me understands and accepts this, but still I rage quietly at this indignity. There’s nothing I can do about it though, so I turn to the next best thing.

I write.

My mind wanders back in time to 1997, to our first few weeks at the Prep School. I don’t remember how he got the nickname Butcher, nor do I recall why. Perhaps it was because of his size? Butcher’s always been on the large side, even though in recent years he had slimmed down considerably. All of us thought he had gone on a diet or something; God knows how wrong we were.

Despite his size, or perhaps because of it, Butcher tended to keep things to himself. He was mild-mannered; I struggle to recall any instance of him getting angry at someone else.

What I do recall was his undeniable sporting prowess. Butcher was a natural athlete, excelling in multiple sports to the extent that he was awarded Best Sportsman during our Form 1-Form 2 Carnival in 1997. As a rugby player, he was almost ‘untackleable’. He played ‘sepak takraw‘ very well, on top of football, table tennis, and volleyball. Without him, Sulaiman House would’ve languished in 4th place forever; with Butcher around, at least we had a small chance of getting 3rd place on Sports Day!

He was ever willing to lend a helping hand, offering his services as a masseur at the Prep School to friends who had injured themselves while playing sports. Knowing him, the fact that he could skip evening prep (or ‘prep malam‘ as we called it back then) was a bonus. The only thing you had to make sure was not to block his access to the cool air from the ceiling fan. Indeed, one of my batch’s popular sayings is “Butcher dan aircond/kipas berpisah tiada” i.e. you can’t separate Butcher from his place under the aircond/fan.

If you’ve ever been to a boarding school in Malaysia, you will know that every now and then, schools go through a period of mass hysteria, when students claim to experience all sorts of supernatural phenomena (see, for example, this BBC article). How is this relevant here? Well, it was during one such episode when some random person (I don’t remember who) claimed to have seen Butcher fly, or to be more precise, float a few inches off the ground. How’s that for a party trick? I even wrote about the incident years ago for our batch website (which I think still exists somewhere on the Internet).

I’m preparing this blog post just a few hours after attending a virtual ‘tahlil‘ session on Zoom with my batchmates. Many of us are in tears, myself included.

He is the first of us to go. Reminder to self: eventually, all of us will follow.

I can’t help but ask myself: how come I didn’t know about this earlier? Judging from what a few other people said during the ‘tahlil‘, I got the impression that most of us were caught by surprise. Did we fail our brother, thinking that he had lost weight because he was getting fitter, when in reality his health was slowly failing? Wallahu a’lam…Allah SWT knows best.

But then I look back at how Butcher had always conducted himself, and I wonder if this was what he had always wanted. Reserved to the point of being shy, maybe this was the way he wanted to be remembered. Not as a sick person, but as a natural athlete, a good friend, and an extremely likeable person.

Fighting back tears, I scroll back to the picture at the top of this post; there he was, wearing the traditional black ‘baju Melayu‘ reserved for MCKK cheerleaders during important sporting events, leading all of us, his friends and brothers, in a rousing rendition of the victory anthem ‘Gemilang’.

Such a perfect photo of our dear friend, if ever there was any!

“Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa sahabat kami Mohd Zulfadhli Faiq bin Baharuddin. Terimalah segala amalannya, berilah rahmatMu kepadanya, dan tempatkanlah beliau di kalangan orang-orang yang soleh.”


Damailah dirimu di sana wahai sahabat…

Innalillahi wa inna ilaihiraaji’uun.

MOHD ZULFADHLI FAIQ BIN BAHARUDDIN
1984-2021

9 Comments

  1. Takziah to the Zulfadhli’s family & 9701.

    Semoga arwah ditempatkan dikalangan orang² soleh. He is a very good senior to us indeed.

  2. Innalillahi wainna ilaihirajiun. Semoga ditempatkan bersama para mukminin.

    Takziah untuk his family and batchmates.

    Chioque
    Mohd Shah 8286

  3. Innalillahiwainnailaihirhojiun

    Salam takziah utk ahli keluarga & 9701…
    Moga arwah ditempatkan di kalangan orang soleh…

  4. Innalillahiwainnailaihirhojiun

    Salam takziah utk ahli keluarga & 9701…
    Moga arwah ditempatkan di kalangan orang soleh…

    Boeing 77 E16 Ahmad House

  5. Its always a sad and sombre occassion when somebody whom you know passes on. Especially when that someone is someone with whom you grew up with, evolving from boy to man.

    Innallillahi wainnailahirojiun. Salam takziah to his family and his brothers of C01. Semoga dirahmati dan diredhai Nya.

    Shah 7377

  6. Thank you everyone for the kind comments. I really appreciate each and every one of them.

    By writing about my friend here, I hope that other people can also get a sense for what a wonderful person he was. You will be missed, Butcher.

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